There’s a nervous tension in the air. The air is also filled with excitement about what the future might bring and what it might hold. I am excited and nervous for what the future might hold for me as for the first time in my life, I have no set destination with any direction. I am like Jack’s compass in Pirates of the Caribbean that doesn’t point north, but to the thing the holder wants most. I am spinning like that compass, as I’m not sure what I want to do, or where to go, but I have a lot of ideas and plans that I have to figure out.
All throughout my time at Rasmussen College I had a set direction: Finish school, get your bachelor’s degree and then go to law school. Now, I am no longer in law school so my compass has changed. It is no longer pointing in one direction, but spinning in a multitude of directions. I am very disappointed that I’m going to be back for another semester of law school but I already have a few ideas in the works. I have to plan them out a little more extensively, but I have the foundation set.
Right now, I’m going to be focusing on getting a job so that I can pay off my student loans as quickly as possible and start saving some money for the future. Ideally, I’d like to get a job in law firm so that can earn money, while still learning about the law. I’m also going to be working a lot more on my bike rental business, EL Bike Rental, to try to expand it and generate more revenue from it.
A project that I have in the works, is probably one of the most exciting things I’m going to be doing! I’m going to be working on a book about NFL General Managers! I’m planning on interviewing all the NFL General Managers and asking them a series of questions about their job and their life. Hopefully, I will be able to talk to all of the GMs and the book will be a success.
So, while I’m not quite sure what my final destination is and I don’t have everything planned out yet, I have a lot of ideas for projects for me to do. Once I get everything organized and a plan down, I’m hoping that everything goes smoothly from there on out!
As the last grade came in, my heart dropped. A sinking feeling entered my chest and I immediately felt sick and worried. At this moment, I realized that I would not be back at FAMU for a second semester of law school.
I needed a B- in my last exam to stay in law school in order to meet the GPA standards set by FAMU. I did not get it. While I was happy to say that I passed all of my courses, my GPA didn’t meet FAMU’s requirements. It is very hard to make it from being a first-year law student (1L) to being a second-year law student (2L) in law school. According to the last published ABA (American Bar Association) data just over 40% of 1L students did not make it to the second year for any number of reasons. Based on grades, about 1 in 6 didn’t make it for academic reasons, like me.
I’ve had a very stressful, exciting and eventful semester. I’ve been stressed with so many different things from driving downtown Orlando to FAMU at 6 am, to turning in legal papers 15 minutes before the midnight deadline, learning how to write legally and making sure that I’ve prepared for class.
On my final exams, it was particularly stressful because a couple times the software that I was using to write my essays, froze up and I wasn’t able to write as much as I wanted.
Another time I had handwrite the whole essay! I definitely think that hurt me because I wasn’t able easily to go back and fix anything. Also, in the majority of my classes, 100% of my grade in the class was determined by the exam. Now that was super stressful! I’ll definitely want to meet with my professors to find out what I did wrong and also, hopefully, learn what I did right.
It’s extremely disappointing to me that I won’t be back for a second semester as I feel like I blew a golden opportunity to get done with law school before I was 21. There were definitely some things that I probably could have done better and there were a couple issues that I had that probably hindered me throughout this process.
One issue was the exams themselves. These law school exams were unlike any tests I’ve taken before. The material was harder, the questions were much more confusing than any questions I’ve seen on other tests, or practice exam questions. The second issue was that during the semester, I had thought that I understood the material that I was learning, but I didn’t really begin to fully understand it until November. Meaning, I understood the material on the surface level but I didn’t begin to understand it on a deeper level until November. That is too late to be fully understanding the material in law school and I suspect that I needed to know it at a deeper level.
I started to understand things better as the term progressed and really caught fire towards the end. That won’t work in law school. Also, I jumped into the fire not knowing what to expect or how I was supposed to do anything, such as writing case briefs, reading cases, taking tests and legal writing. That played a major part in the struggles I had. It definitely would’ve been better if I had more experience in all of these things before law school. But I know that the reason I started law school at 17 was because I wanted to give it a try rather than wait several years before trying.
I am definitely very disappointed that I didn’t make it this time. I feel like I let my family and my friends down and didn’t live up to the standards I set for myself. I had a great opportunity and I couldn’t capitalize on it. It’s like starting at your opponents 17 yard line in football and not being able to score the touchdown. It’s disappointing but all I can do is move on and learn from my experiences and better myself. I’ve got the future in front of me and all I can do is continue to do better and make my way.
I definitely plan on coming back to law school. In the meantime though, I plan to get a job or two, maybe one at a law firm and earn enough money to pay off my student loans and save some money for law school. I’ve also have some ideas on some blogging, book writing and putting some more effort into my bike rental business, ELBikeRental.com.
There’s that old saying, “when one door closes, another opens.” In my case, the door hasn’t been locked, but rather just closed. All I have to do is reach for the doorknob when I’m ready and open it back up again! I’m disappointed but very excited to see what the future holds for me! Stay Tuned.
These last few days have been pretty crazy and busy for my family! Earlier this week, after the “Rain Game” we had Parker, Thomas and Quyen come over and played football in the cold weather. It was awesome! It was about 40 degrees out and there was a decent amount of wind which made it all the more fun. Now I’m sure not everyone there liked playing football in the cold or the rain, but for some reason, I have always loved playing football in the elements. There’s just this certain indescribable aura surrounding it that makes it amazing! I’ve been to a pro football game when it was 20 degrees — in Green Bay, Wisconsin. Playing in that kind of weather would be fun for me.
On Saturday, we had the first Annual Bunk Room Talent Show and this was such a major event for the whole family and The Bunk Room. Margo and Mom had spent a couple months planing and getting contestants for the show and they put a ton of work into it. Not only just planing the logistics, but the marketing, set up and everything!
There were a lot of people at the talent show and Margo had brought in a couple volunteers from Mount Dora and Eustis High School to help us out with selling tickets, selling refreshments and just coordinating everything during the talent show. She even got great people to judge the talent show. The judges were David Oliver Willis, a contestant on season 12 and 13 of American Idol, Cathy Hoechst, the mayor of Mount Dora and Kim Pinson, owner of the Whispering Winds in Mount Dora. The talent show was a big hit! All of the contestants did a fantastic job, everybody helping did a fantastic job. It seems like everyone had a great time.
Today was a very interesting day to say the least. It had both a high and a low, much like a bell curve. This morning, Benj and I went over to our family’s rental house, near downtown Mount Dora, where we finished putting the trim up and cleaned up the mess from the wood flooring and paint. We had to get the house all finished by noon today because the new renter was going to start to move in and we were having some friends come over to play football.
Parker, Mason, Thomas and Doug came over around 1pm to play football and when we headed over to the field, it started to rain a little bit. By the time we got to the field it was pouring rain and we thought about not playing, but we decided that it might be kind of cool to play football in the rain. It was a ton of fun, at least for me, to play football in the rain! Everyone was slipping and sliding, it was a low scoring game and just a ton of fun overall!
When we got back home, I received a text from Audrey letting me know that the grades for Contracts were up. I was very nervous about the grade I would get because Contracts was probably the hardest class I had and probably the one I did the worst in. I looked at the grade and it was not great or anything but it wasn’t an F.
In order to be in law school next semester, I’ll need to have at least a B- in Torts, which might be possible because I think Torts is one of my best classes. Hopefully, I do get that grade because I don’t know what I would do if I wasn’t back at school next semester. It’s pretty scary and nerve-wracking thinking about it.